Sorry I’ve been gone so long…

I had to deal with waiting for an assessment at the Canadian Center for Addiction and Mental Health, and then after that an appointment with my p.doc about the results.

Turns out I’m not going to Crazy Camp. In fact, it turns out I’m not crazy, just an asshole.

Ok, that’s not fair. No offense to people with personality disorders, it’s just the first thing that came to mind when the man told me I was probably more Borderline Personality Disorder than Bipolar. My p.doc said she had a suspicion. So now I’m both, on paper.

What does this mean? Starting from scratch. I’m off the valproic (haven’t been taking it anyways, too broke), still on cipralex and seroquel to sleep. I’m facing up to a year on a waiting list for DBT, unless I can get a bursary for a private therapist. And even then, there aren’t many in the city that do that sort of thing.

I was so looking forward to getting my life sorted out, and now it’s back to the beginning.  Other then that I’ve been doing ok. I even have a new job, I have my 5th day tomorrow.

I promise to write more – I picked up a whole ton of books at my p.doc’s recommendation, hopefully I’ll have something interesting to say.